It's just none of my business what you think of me!....

Today, if I feel like it, I intend to  go out wearing something my fiveyearold daughters might have chosen - even if it makes me look as if I'm auditioning for a post as a clown.

What other people think of me is really not my concern - it is entirely up to them, not my business. My business is to 100% experience myself and my own life, in this vibrantly alive universe. How on earth can I expect to be in good contact with my own spirit, if I'm busy angsting over how that spirit - my soul  - will look to other people, if I'm preoccupied by how I'll be perceived as a 'soul-conscious person'?  That's just SO up myself!

When I get lost in worrying about what other people might think, I spend all my time attempting to manage what I imagine they might be thinking... whether they are thinking it or not.  My mum used to say sagely, 'you wouldn't worry half as much about what people thought of you, if you knew just how rarely they did'.

As someone with a natural tendency to self-absorption, the opinions of others can rule me if I let them. In fact, fear of them robs me of my very direction in life. They can keep me from living as I might like to live. But they don't have to.....The opinions of others belong to them, and that's where they should stay.


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What an absolutely blindingly exciting time to be alive!

...albeit a tad scary too.

I'm trying to stay tuned in to the massive amounts of creative and spiritual energy that can be seen and sensed all around us right now. It feels to me as if we're a world in the middle of a great cleansing - the walls that once threatened to divide people forever are falling, repressive nations and states are being proved to be no longer viable, the evils that people do to one another are out in the open where their darkness can be bleached by the sun.

It's just great. People's creativity is everywhere in evidence. Is it just me, or is the spirit of this age changing things on the level of person, community, country and world? Everywhere I look, people are coming into the awareness of soul and self - I've heard it called 'conscious living', and that goes some way to describiing it.  It makes me want to join this call to revolution, this new and joyful battle against evil fought first in the confines of the heart and next in the world at large.

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Today my project is - to stop trying to run the show!

Attempting to control the outcome of events does nothing more than set me up for disappointment!

By this I mean that it crystallises my expectations in a single direction  - with the result that I miss all the living in between. It makes me want to manage people and events in such a way that they can't do anything to threaten my idea of how things should to go.

When I try and manipulate or manage people, I set up a tension in the dynamic between us. I make events in my mind more important than the people who are participating in them. I drain myself, other people and situations of their spontaneity, and this in turn inhibits all of our connections with spirit and soul. Creativity and spontaneity have to have a free run to flow in and out of my time and space, so's they can breathe life and energy onto the stage of my life.

So today I'm going to keep reminding myself to let go of my need to control outcomes; in fact I'm gouing to try and not even be invested in those outcomes. I'm just going to enjoy doing the next right thing on the journey.

There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will.
Epictetus

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